As i make this decision to actually change my lifes into more relax...ths is why i'm typing about it...When the begining of my life,i have a difficult life...for real...at first,i was quite confussing of myself whether i've done wrong or not...after a few years,i found out that i'm not a normal people from the inside even thought from the outside i'm a normal people....the reason why am i like this is because i looks like a abnormal person which dont understand anything at all...i feel like that too..i also dont really know why but this is the fact that i actually that kind of people...*you should understand yourself more..*
Well...the thing i want to tell is most of all,people thnk i'm a weird person in this moment...i dont know why i'm this kind of people but the thing is i'm like that...it makes me more worried about myself...*maybe i should think more about it...*
Actually not a lot of people will have a good life like others...its because i feel like that...its because i sometimes will be nice people and sometimes dont...for real...and i feel like i have two personality...well...no most of them will feel about but i can feel something from them...i also dont know why but this is the real...it makes me wondering why am i doing such a creepy things before that...
Well...got something is making me more worried...is...FRIENDS!you know why am i wanna talk about that??its because i didnt appreciate about it...this happened last year...after she broke up our friendship,i feel that i was the person who didnt really know her feeling and most of all,i didnt really respect about it...and then i'm thinking of murdering myself and kill myself...but before i'm doing that,i'm thinking of myself...is this helping me to solve my problem??of course not...and also,i really have a chance to live in this place because of God!!but i nearly do that...at last,it doesnt happen at all...thats for real...
Thats all for today...hopefully will have a wonderful time and remember...do not do such things like killing yourself before you actually think that...and have a nice holiday in this two weeks...well...ENJOY!!!!
